Wonder Day 8.3.15


I measure myself against my brothers. I want to change that.

I'm jealous of all the things they do. This is an old feeling. Ever since I was a child, I felt like I should be a boy and brother in this family instead of the only girl. 

I'm not sure why I feel like this, but I think it's because my brothers got attention for their accomplishments, which they deserved and, either I didn't get enough attention or I cannot feel the attention I get. Maybe my jealous feeling is because I don't trust that it's okay for all of us to receive.

I want to be me. I want to celebrate my brothers when I hear about the good things they do rather than feel jealous. 

I'll change by remembering that I want to change. The next time one of my brothers accomplishes something, I'll tell myself and him that I'm happy for him. The next time I do something well, I'll tell myself that I'm happy for me.  - adult in a workshop, Florida